What does a balance body look like for you?
How time flies. As you may have read this week I set new rules and planned out my workouts for the week. I did the best that I could for the most part and worked out 4/6 times this week. I managed to keep cooking throughout the week and had one bad day where I ate festival food. Hey, festivals only happen once every few months and have foods that are only incredible in Japan… so I will eat festival food when they come around and I will not feel guilty about it! Here are some of my meals for the week.
The best thing I did for myself this week was discover the source of my binge eating. There are times, like this past Saturday morning, where I wake up and am surrounded by candy wrappers. This weekend was a box of M&M’s and Skittles. I wake up going, “Who the hell ate all that candy? @$^#. I did.” It’s like I turned into this uncontrollable monster who consumed whatever when I was feeling stressed or sad. My friends call it the gremlin that lives inside of me. It happened about once a week if not more.
So I had a Skype phone call with my good friend, Mike Brabant. He was doing complimentary Skype sessions through his company, Integral Wellness Solutions. Of course I jumped on the opportunity. You can check out more information what he did for me, check out his website here. After filling out a questionnaire to assess four categories of my life: mind, body, spirit, and shadow (past), he helped me discover the source of my problem. I knew my eating habit had to do with homesickness, but it went deeper than that. I eat so I don’t have to feel. I eat so I don’t have to think about sad things or feel. I want to be seen as strong and this is how I cope with unwanted feelings. Some of you may think this isn’t bad, but in the end it is. My health is suffering. I’m not leading by example and haven’t lost a inch. My measurements are still the same after 5 weeks! Most importantly, it’s contradicting the woman I want to be. It’s so unhealthy to hold in all these emotions because it will creep on me in other ways when I least want or expect them to. So now, I must work on feeling. Since I recognize the source of the problem, every time I am about to grab the candy uncontrollably, I know it’s because I am ignoring what I should be feeling.
I am so relieved to figure this out and by working on this, maybe the motivation will come naturally. By the way, I have always been a huge Mike Brabant supporter since I met him during my Lululemon days. He’s up to amazing things and is one of the most incredible, inspirational individuals I’ve had the pleasure of knowing. He’s dedicated to helping reveal unhealthy, old habits and patterns of people’s lives. Then he teaches them how to shift perspectives and gives them tools of how to handle these weaknesses. He helps people heal, grow, and gain personal responsibility for their development, allowing them to discover new possibilites for their lives. If you are interested in Mike’s complimentary coaching session click here. I think there are only about 15 passes left, so jump on it if you are interested.
In conclusion, I know these next 7 weeks will be incredible. They will be because I say so and do so. I am healthy and fit. There are no excuses. I know what my problems are and determined to overcome them.
Measurements: 77 cm waist, 58 thighs, 100 butt, 87 chest